A Captive Mind

God is God and I am not,
I can only see a part
of the picture He's painting
God is God and I am man
I can never understand it all
for ONLY GOD is GOD

Once again I struggle with worry. I play a million scenarios out in my head and fret about different situations in each one. Let me tell you, I have a great imagination....unfortunate at times. So, my mind has run wild the last few days. When that happens, my first sign is a distracted mind and an upset stomach. I swear my stomach and my brain are best friends and worst enemies. I worry about my health, my future, I even worry about future trials God might bring into my life and worry how I will prepare myself for them. Why can't I just focus on knowing my God and trusting Him? I get so frustrated. I read every book about this and I know it in my head, yet putting it into practice I feel like I fail every time!!! I read one of my favorite verses again yesterday and have been REALLY REALLY trying to put it into practice...
Be ANXIOUS for NOTHING. But, in everything by PRAYER and SUPPLICATION with THANKSGIVING, let your requests be made known unto God. And the PEACE of God which transcends ALL UNDERSTANDING will guard your hearts and your minds in CHRIST JESUS.

1, STOP worrying.
2. PRAY about each request instead.
3. THANK Him for his provision, guidance, and character.
4. RECEIVE peace.

If only I were good at the first three steps....I really want that fourth one.

Pray with me that I will learn to embrace those principles rather than let my mind wonder....

Prone to wander Lord I feel it. Prone to leave the God I love.

I wander from God when I let my mind wander. Please God, take my mind captive. I'm sick of Satan holding it!

Busy, busy, busy

Welcome to my life:

I am a full-time teacher. I work with 17 children that I love more than anything. I dedicate time and energy to ensure that they have a complete and memorable education.

I am a full-time wife and homemaker. Daily I spend time in prayer for my husband. I pray for his leadership and I pray for my submission. I tend to the housework, laundry, etc thankfully with much of his help. :)

I am a part-time student. I am currently taking 9 credits of graduate classes. I am not motivated to do these and continually struggle with seeing these classes as valuable.

I am a math tutor. Recently I was asked to help struggling 1-4 graders with math after school. I do this twice a week.

I am God's child. I work on this daily. I try to know Him more and keep my heart focused on Him. I fall, I fail, I struggle. I want this role to be most important in my life....yet it so often gets crowded out.

BUSYNESS!!!!!!!!

Recently I have been meditating on scripture. In the past I would work on memorizing a verse for a period of time, but I never really meditated on it. Currently I am meditating on a verse that gives God all the credit for everything I do...which as you can see is a lot! The only reason I can do all those things and not loose my mind is because of the strength I receive from Him - the strength that I call to each morning when the alarm sounds. I am so thankful for that strength. So, while some days I feel like my mind is running in a million different directions, I know that God will work in and through me as all the while I am learning dependence on Him.

Thanks for the strength God...
P.S. Summer break is 52 school days away, and I can't wait.